For once, I have all of my homework done in advance and I’m not procrastinating. I make a lot of excuses, but the real problems are two in number. The first is that I have an awful habit of procrastinating. The second is that I am easily distracted. A book, a videogame, even an off topic thought and I stop focusing. Combine this with the fact that I like to put things off, and suddenly I find that I’ve dug myself into a hole. I want to change both of those habits, but I’m not sure how. If I work on stuff in advance and force myself not to procrastinate, I still run into the issue of focus. I have no idea how to force myself to focus, because I drift off again, and I end up wasting my time anyway.
I wish I could fix the focus issue, because I feel like that would help with the procrastination. I’m just not sure how to break either habit.
I find this outline very frustrating! True, I have only a few notecards left to type into google, but the outline itself is irritating. I am lucky that I completed most of the research already. Bah!
prom was okay. It happened. It’s over. I enjoyed it, but I’m glad I only have to help organize it once. I’m still working on my outline for English. The math test is tedious and I would much rather do something else.
I’m getting tired of dealing with prom. Decorations are pretty much done, as is the making of decisions. I can’t wait for Friday to go by so that this event can be done. It’s not so much that I dislike prom as I’m tired of people whining about and causing one problem, then another, then another. I really just wish that the whole thing would just hurry up and leave.
Today hasn’t really been the greatest, for obvious reasons…
Also, I’m waiting for ACT scores. Every kid in the class has gotten their scores except for me. I’m really hoping that the scores come soon because I’m tired of people asking me what I got.
The constant fighting and arguing in my class is getting old. Even friends are just starting to seem… Dull. Lately I feel like our whole school has just been doused in dust or something. I want this year to be over.
All the classes and teachers seem like pointless filler material. The students are all cranky and in bad moods, and lunch sucks. I’m not really mad, or even complaining. This year feels red…
That describes how I feel the best. Red on the horizon and dust in the air. Normally spring feels new and alive. Now it feels dead. Like instead of waking the year up from winter, we’re about to find a thawing corpse. I’m not sure why, but I have this ominous feeling, like this year is the calm before the storm, that nasty, gloomy moment right before all hell breaks loose. It’s probably just me being morbid, but I feel like something bad is on the way.
I would really enjoy having one of the giant whale things the chitaurii in the Avengers use. Just imagine: a giant flying whale beast to rampage at will and do my bidding. That would be awesome….
Sadly, it is not to be.
I’ve got testing tomorrow. I have everything ready, from the moment I wake up till I reach the testing site. I can do this, and I will. I will do well, I will succeed, and I will get my goal score. I’m ready.